So Darn Tired!

I want to create art, I really do...but i also want to sleep, undisturbed, and for once wake up to my own body clock, instead of someone else's - or waking up by getting my hair pulled, kicked in the face or headbutted by the baby who starts thrashing the second he wakes up.

The problem with things as they stand at the moment, both getting art done, and sleeping undisturbed are both relatively hard to do (though the sleep is definitely harder- i can muck while they play, i cant really sleep).

It is times like these that I wish homemaking was like other jobs- i get so envious of my husband sometimes- he gets to come home when the day is done, he gets to take naps on the couch after dinner, he gets to play computer games during the day on the weekend (not just during naptime!), and most of all he gets holidays- days where he doesnt even have to go to work!

Now, I love my kids, and I do love being a mum, but the last full 24 hr period i got "off", I was in labor! I have just managed to sleep train my youngest so he is sleeping until at least 5am in his own bed without waking, but before that i had about 18 months of waking up several times a night, sometimes for hours at a time (this is counting the time while i was pregnant and sick etc). I just want to have some good sleep so i can organise my brain and then actually be able to create!

Maybe I should do a series on sleep meditations...lol.

Art- Dam

My second child is just about 12 months now, and as such I am finding myself a bit more time to start art projects. Despite this new found freedom, I am hard pressed to fully start and finish projects that I am coming up with.

It is not due to a lack of creative ideas, or vision, it seems to be the opposite! I have so many ideas for what I want to do next that I am trying to juggle multiple projects on an already cluttered workbench, and hopping from one to the other with the attention span of my three year old!

I have hit an art dam!

Just so everyone is caught up with the scope of the dam, heres a list of projects that i have currently started in the last month:

Things to hand out/trade (advertising material):
- ATC's
- Business cards

Things to possibly sell:
- Altered Book covers
- Bookmarks
- Postcards
- Altered boxes

Artworks:
- "you make my heart glow" electrical assemblage
- several random collage paintings
- a detailed research-based series on angels ( i havent gotten much past the detailed research part and a few prelim sketches yet)

(and yes...all the "s" at the end of the items denote that i have not started just one of these, but many)

This list does not include all the random ideas i have come up with and stored away for later, nor the floundering i have done trying to figure out what direction i should head in to start becoming a real (read:salable) artist, or whether i should just become an art entrepreneur while trying to build a bigger portfolio...or just try and get into some government job with a retirement plan and give up...lol!

Art dam indeed. I just wish i could commit to something and complete it! I typically start getting into trouble when I am working on a project and something needs to dry, so i start something else, and then keep progressing further from the original project from there...or the kids wake up and i leave it all in a mess and then feel uninspired when i come back.

I guess the art dam could also be stemming from getting older, and looking at the world around me and realising that its gonna take alot more than making lots of art to actually get somewhere with it all...hmmm...if only!