I want to create art, I really do...but i also want to sleep, undisturbed, and for once wake up to my own body clock, instead of someone else's - or waking up by getting my hair pulled, kicked in the face or headbutted by the baby who starts thrashing the second he wakes up.
The problem with things as they stand at the moment, both getting art done, and sleeping undisturbed are both relatively hard to do (though the sleep is definitely harder- i can muck while they play, i cant really sleep).
It is times like these that I wish homemaking was like other jobs- i get so envious of my husband sometimes- he gets to come home when the day is done, he gets to take naps on the couch after dinner, he gets to play computer games during the day on the weekend (not just during naptime!), and most of all he gets holidays- days where he doesnt even have to go to work!
Now, I love my kids, and I do love being a mum, but the last full 24 hr period i got "off", I was in labor! I have just managed to sleep train my youngest so he is sleeping until at least 5am in his own bed without waking, but before that i had about 18 months of waking up several times a night, sometimes for hours at a time (this is counting the time while i was pregnant and sick etc). I just want to have some good sleep so i can organise my brain and then actually be able to create!
Maybe I should do a series on sleep meditations...lol.
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